ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED! And I've won a prize! :)

I can't believe it ! I've won something! :D

I entered a contest at http://musingsofanaspie.com/  and I was picked to win one of ten prizes !
How neat is that!?
HOLY EXCITEMENT BATMAN!!

The way it worked was there were ten prizes and ten names drawn for all sorts of cool stim toys and  really good books etc, seen here : http://musingsofanaspie.com/2014/11/10/big-giant-giveaway-books-stim-toys-chewy-jewelry/
Each person chosen , in order could pick whatever they liked of the ten and the remaining people would pick from the remaining prizes down the order so on and so on.
I was picked #9 I think, and so I got to pick between numbers nine and ten , of which, # 1O IS THE BOOK THAT I REALLY ACTUALLY WANTED TO WIN!
How darn cool is that!?
XD
Maybe I've been watching a bit too much Sabrina the Teenage Witch, but , "WOO HOO!"


For those of you that have been reading along with me , you know my battle, getting re-diagnosed so that I have proper documentation of my autism has been a long one and the fight has been hard, degrading at times and I had almost given up more than once. I think this book couldn't be making its way to me at a better or more relevant time in my life, tomorrow , it will be a week to the day that I once again have my formal diagnosis!
That means , I can start feeling like I'm not telling an untruth * I knew I wasn't but oftentimes felt like I was because I could "prove" nothing* It means , I can start to actively live with this wonderful affirmation from a little piece of paper that tells professionals in my life that I'm not borderline, I'm not depressed, I'm not OCD, I'm not 'just fat' *because apparently that makes it all in your head*





I'M AUTISTIC! AND SO SO PROUD TO BE ABLE TO SAY THIS!
I'M SO PROUD I COULD YELL IT! ( but not too loud X) I HAVE A MY SILLY LITTLE BIT OF PAPER TO TELL THE REST OF THE WORLD WHAT I HAVE KNOWN FOR A LIFETIME!

I am so happy , just so happy :)
That's three amazing things this week, I received my formal bit of paper, HB and I got to see our baby boy during our ultrasound AND I've won a book that I'd been coveting for some months!

What an awesome week <3

IT'S A ?????

Remember , to see in more detail, right click and open in a new tab

for the magnifying tool!

Throwback Thursday! (Trigger warning, dog bites)

Yep, I'm joining in the #TBT (Throwback Thursday) Shenanigans XD

Here's a comic I drew and inked after an incident last spring, but I haven't been able to touch
until now, because , well, I can still hear the dog, and the sounds that I made that I scared myself with!
Its not a fun memory and still pretty vivid O.o
So, here we go!

(Remember to right click the picture and open in a new tab for the magnifying glass feature!)

Ok, so maybe I'm a LITTLE afraid of dogs still X)
But can you blame me? That sucked! So when I can't see a dog coming , or when they unexpectedly bark at me , I'm still pretty jumpy O.o
The good thing is, I have some really good friends with really well behaved dogs that I've been able to hang out with and try to acclimatize myself around again, Leah's got Fezzik (who may or may not be a deer in disguise) he's a greyhound with a lovely personality, my Mum has Chandler, my brother's service dog, Alex and little Aelia, and ALisa and Brian have this (previously little) ball of hair that is as big as a grown dog at four months of age , Creedence. She's massive! And awesome!

All of these fuzzbabies are helping me slowly to trust dogs again, I've even gone to Bruce pit which is like a doggie playground for off collar fun, and the anxiety wasn't too bad :)

First day, after calming down

Two weeks later O.o

Lookit the pretty universe colors!
4 weeks of bruise!

Finally week 7! Its going away!

5 weeks and starting to heal nicely

It took about two months for the
darned thing to heal all together!
I'm just thankful, like I said in the comic, that it A: wasn't a little kid's face! The force with which that dog hit me was like a damned baseball bat on four legs!
B: That I wasn't pregnant! O.O
I can only imagine the force of the lunge and the stress and trauma, may not have been a good thing  if I WAS pregnant at that time D:
Thankful thankful thankful O.O

I think the worst part, other than the residual anxiety (PTSD?) that I'm still experiencing, is that, I know that I can run into this dog again ANY TIME, because bylaw wouldn't do ANYTHING.
I would have had to go and apprehend the dog myself and bring it in!! WHAT!?
Right, right , I'll get right on that O.o  NOT.

I've seen the bad yellow dog once more, with Alex and his little dog, and Honeybee. I didn't realize it was THAT dog until HB started leading me away from it, putting himself between everyone and me, and Alex and little dog did the same too, and that bad yellow dog tried to get us again!!!
(insert panic attack # 2 right there!)

Euw euw euuuw euw eeeeuuuuwwww! :(
I wish there was some way I could warn people on the path to Grama's house, I used to feel totally safe walking it by myself and now I have to go the long way to bypass that part :/

I shouldn't have to. The bad dog should have a muzzle on if it goes after people like that.
I think, anyway.

Alrighty! Enough with this Throwback Thursday, I've got Gnomes to draw and Comics to ink!
Thank you to all my friends and their well mannered dogs for your love and support over the time that I've found myself affected by this EXTRA anxiety :)

*like I needed more right!? X) *

Anyways!
Love and a Spoon
<3 (___)=========

We're back up and inking and there's BIG NEWS!

Hey everyone! I'm working in a new size format!

The words will appear too small here, so RIGHT CLICK AND OPEN IN A NEW TAB!
Then you'll have the magnifying glass tool to use :)
Thank you SO much for popping in!

<3

Ta Daaaaah! Good surprise to come back with eh?
I know many of my friends will already know from our facebook outing but I wanted to do something super special for WTASD <3
Here was our previous announcement--------------------->

It should be a fun ride , I think!
A totally different sensory experience O.O
And Oh my GAWD I never thought I could cry more
and be MORE sensitive to EVERYTHING than
I already was !
It makes me laugh so hard I cry and cry so hard I laugh X)


Anyways!
I hope you all enjoyed our comeback as much as I do!

Love and a Spoon
<3 (___)========

Something happened this week, it comes with a TRIGGER WARNING.

Something happened this week.

TRIGGER WARNING, 

OOOOOH HUGE TRIGGER WARNING.

Not to me , but it affects me, because you know what it could have been me, if my parent 
hadn't loved me the way she did. The way she does. Despite and all with my differences and deficiencies, she takes the time and care to have me as I am.

A mother killed her child this week, and the world at large is saying poor her, she must have been so overwhelmed and mentally unwell.
POOR HER? SHE THREW HER CHILD OFF A BRIDGE! CAN YOU IMAGINE THE TERROR THAT CHILD MUST HAVE FELT AS HE FLEW THROUGH THE AIR THE WATER RUSHING UP AT HIM IN A HUGE DARK HORROR?! CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT SOMEONE HE LOVED AND TRUSTED TOSSED HIM INTO COLD WET HORRIFIC DEATH!?
OH MY GOD!
That poor child.
That poor child!

But the world says poor her, she was going through so much, I understand why she did it.
I understand how hundreds of children die at the hands of parents and caregivers every year because they were exhausted, because they couldn't deal , because they were single parents , because because because because because because because because,
because of a million and one reasons.

The only reason a child with autism dies at the hands of a parent or caregiver is because he is autistic.
The only reason a child with autism is MURDERED at the hands of a parent or caregiver is because
she is AUTISTIC!

This is disgusting, it makes my tummy hurt, it makes my heart ache and I think of the tiny child I'm growing inside me. S/he will be so loved, s/he will be ACCEPTED EXACTLY AS S/HE IS.
But s/he has to grow up in a world where a mother throws her son off a bridge.
Because that boy is like his/her mother.
Because that boy had autsim.

Of couse there were many other factors, there always are, but the difference being, if this young boy in love with soft fuzzy hats and stuffed animals had been neurotypical and verbal, the Queen of Hearts would be calling for her head, along with the rest of the world.
Had he been a neurotypical child, the phone call she made to report her own actions to the police would have been labeled as planning, predestined thought, but because he wasn't it was an act of MERCY?!
An act of mercy, of desperation.

I call BULLSHIT.
The abuse and murder of neurodivergent people MUST NOT GO UNPUNISHED!
IT HAS TO STOP.

There should be no ''understanding why they did it'' when this happens to a child
a person, AT ANY TIME.

Often the argument I hear is "how would you even know, unless you've been through what they have?"

Karla's ASD Page I think said it best. 
I DON'T NEED TO WALK IN THEIR SHOES TO KNOW THAT KILLING MY OWN CHILD IS WRONG, %100 OF THE TIME.

Thank you, thank you , thank you to all the gorgeous loving

parents that I have the absolute honor of knowing, because

you make my heart hurt a little less when I think of how much

you love and honor your children, exactly as they are.